We had just come home from a 3.5 week trip to Michigan where the kids and I spent so much time visiting friends and family!
My entire family is up in Michigan as well as my husbands so we are the loners down here in South Florida. I am thankful that I am a work from home mom and during these summer months when the kids aren't in school and we need a change of pace, we are financially and time wise able to pick up life and go make memories with our loved ones.
Wednesday, August 9, was the day we left Michigan and flew home, I hadn't felt that great but figured it was due to poor nutrition, a few too many good craft beers (when in beer city!), and lack of adequate sleep while traveling with two kids and a baby! We got home late night and we all crashed.
I woke up Thursday August 10 -- my baby girls -- first birthday. A day of celebration, a day I was dreading because I couldn't believe the little girl who has changed my life forever, was hitting such a huge milestone in her life. I couldn't believe my baby went from baby to toddler in a matter of what felt like minutes. It was this day full of emotion already that, that my life would change AGAIN in a huge way.
I woke up and felt off again, I just felt dizzy, queasy and not myself.
"No way, I can't be pregnant. This isn't happening.....I have to take a test"
I found a test in the back of the downstairs bathroom cabinet, I took it without even thinking it could possibly come back positive. I took the test with 3 kids running around at 11 am on a Thursday morning.
One line showed up. I sighed a bit of relief.
I tended to one of the kids (i already can't remember who it was!) and ran back into the bathroom to check on the stick....and there it was.
a faint second pink line.
my heart began to race, my palms got sweaty, I wasn't sure if I should laugh or cry. I panicked and called my friend Leanne...."you're never going to believe this, I can't believe this" I said this over and over again.....and then I sent a picture to her and she confirmed she saw the faint pink line as well.
I was shaking, I wasn't quite sure what to think or feel. So I did what anyone women would do when trying to really figure out if that stick is right or not, I packed up the 3 kids, some snacks, and drove to Target to get my trusty Clearblue Pregnancy Tests in the double box....you know the ones that say PREGNANT and NOT PREGNANT....It's a pregnancy stick for dummies!
I remember strolling through the store with the kids in the cart, two four year olds and a brand new 1 year old toddler....and here I was buying pregnancy tests. All I could think about was what others were thinking of me and I don't want to get fat again!
Bought the tests, made it home, explained to the kids I had to go to the bathroom as soon as we got home. And that I did....I ran right into the bathroom and peed on both sticks at the same time. Before they even made it to the counter, they were both positive.
I sat there in disbelief. Not even able to process my feelings because Brooklynn, Grayson, and Hayden needed their mom today. They needed the attention on them and I had to just suck it up and figure this out later.
But we were in fact pregnant....very pregnant.
