I often forget that the calling of motherhood is a calling of servanthood.
Being a mom means putting your to dos, your needs, wants and desire aside for a better time, a more appropriate time...sure in certain seasons it's a lot easier to accomplish those things we want but other seasons; whether those are days, weeks, months or years...it's harder.
I am in a season of motherhood where I have to take each day how it comes, I can tentatively plan, I can have an idea of how the day will go but it's not a guarantee. I'm in a season of motherhood where I am serving people all day....and it's exhausting, it's hard, we are naturally selfish (why did God wire us this way!?) people and sometimes serving others REQUIRES A LOT OF ENERGY.
It does for me anyways. As hard as that is to admit -- I want my time in the morning, my perfect 2-3 hours before my day of mothering and serving really begins so I can be 100% focused. But if that was doable, then it would be easy and require me not to rely on God for any strength, patience, perseverance, guidance or direction. I would have it all figured out on my own.
If you've been following my Facebook then you know I've been home with 3 sick kids for the last 3 days...and it's been exhausting. It's meant my list of normal daily to do's has been shortened or re-arranged, it's meant dinners have been quick and easy, it's meant workouts have been interrupted, it's meant sleep has been disrupted...it's meant A SEASON of motherhood has entered. This season will be short lived. Now here's what I want to help you with.
A couple months ago even, I would have been sending the kids to school probably since their runny nose is clear and they dont have a fever; technically I can send them. But I can't imagine how miserable they feel, how tired they really are even though they're running crazy here, and how SELFISH sending them to school really is.
Because 3 kids at home all day without a husband coming home at night is exhausting and those hours of them at school would be useful....but it's 100% selfish and not serving them, therefore not serving God. I have been trying not co complain too much and asked my husband to pray for me for these next few days: for patience, guidance, servanthood...it's okay to ask for help!
I know the RIGHT thing to do is keep them home, let them rest and recover, keep other kid from getting sick and EMBRACE this season that God is taking me through -- even though I feel like He's testing me in 10 other things when it comes to patience, but that's another blog.
My point is....we are mothers. We are called to serve and raise these little people -- and that's going be incredibly hard. It's going to mean that things don't get done, things get pushed aside and we miss deadlines and goals....but I guarantee you, you'd rather miss a work deadline or goal than feel mom guilt for not being there happily, joyfully for your children when they needed you...for obeying where you are called to serve.
As each has received a gift, use it to serve one another, as good stewards of God's varied grace. 1 Peter 4:10
Embrace the season, see what God needs you to do and learn, be a servant to Him through your calling and position as mother and wife <3
